I FEEL SO PATHETIC!
I FEEL AS IF NOT BEING TREASURED!
I HATE THIS FEELING
IN ALL YOU GUYS' EYES, I AM ALWAYS THAT CHEERFUL, OPTIMISTIC, INDEPENDENT, NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING, STRONG AND BRAVE.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? IM NOT.
I HATE BEING LONELY, MAYBE YOU ALL DONT KNOW, IM NOT INDEPENDENT AT ALL. I NEED SOMEONE TO RELY ON. BUT WHO?
I CRY SECRETLY AND YOU ALL DONT KNOW. I CRIED NOT BECAUSE ANY RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS. BUT IS MY OWN PROBLEM. I CANT SHARE IT. BECAUSE NOBODY CAN HELP. IVE ALWAYS TRIED TO HELP OTHERS BUT I JUST CANT HELP MYSELF.
I AM OPTIMISTIC BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO DAMPEN EVERYONES' MOOD. BUT DEEP IN MY HEART, ITS THE OPPOSITE.
I AM NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING BECAUSE I WANT TO BE STRONG AND BRAVE, NOT WEAK. NOBODY BELIEVES I WILL HAVE MY OWN WEAK SIDE.
EVERYONE HAVE THEIR OWN PROBLEM. I HAVE TOO. NOBODY KNOWS.
EVEN THE CLOSEST FRIEND OF MINE.
NOBODY KNOWS THE REAL ME. ONLY ME.
I HAVE TO REMAIN THAT STRONG SO I CAN BE RELIED BY MY FRIENDS. I CANNOT AFFORD TO BE WEAK BECAUSE NO ONE CAN HELP ME. NO ONE.
I FEEL LEFT OUT. ONCE IM NOT IN it, I FEEL AS IF IM NOT PART OF THEM, NEVER BEEN ONCE TOO. I FEEL AS IF IM COMPLETELY LEFT OUT FROM IT.
SHE DONT REMEMBER ME. WE ARE LIKE STRANGER NOW! SHE WALK PAST ME, NOT LOOKING AT ME. SOMETIMES WHEN I CALL HER, SHE JUST SMILED AND TURN AWAY. MAYBE SHE THINKS IM A DISGRACE TO HER. IDK.
